Many, many years ago when I was a little girl I would sit on my grandma’s lap, and listen to her tell me stories of strong, and wise warrior princesses. These heroines had everything going for them, beauty, intelligence, wisdom, and more importantly courage. Sitting on her lap, stealing looks at my myopic grandmother, my legs dangling, and a single toe drawing squiggly patterns on the cold mosaic floor… there was no reason not to believe that when I grow up I would be one such gorgeousness.

I’m Giving You
On Count Of Three
To Show Your Stuff
Or Let It Be . . .

In my last post I wrote about PCOS, and how it feels to be living with it. Like I said, and so many of you have been saying to me through your comments here and elsewhere that it is manageable, many of its effects can be reversed by taking charge of yourself. The first step will be accepting yourself, and your body the way it is. I’d say acceptance is important to change as much as change is important to continuity. Once I know who I am and what I represent, I think I am better prepared for the battle up ahead. My very dear friend of many years, after reading the earlier post, said, my PCO journey should read “ Please Chill Out to all those outta’ whack hormones” couldn’t agree more!

The Word Is Out
You’re Doin’ Wrong
Gonna Lock You Up
Before Too Long,

Now everyone is harping about weight gain, yes it is critical, as PCOD makes it difficult for us to lose weight. But if you took time to watch that dummies video I put up earlier it becomes easier to understand what happens to the food when it enters our system. So I am actually looking at cleaning up my act. What I eat and the way I eat it. My blog has a lot of healthy recipes, because I like food that does good on us… but to be honest I live a life beyond the recipes on my blog, where I binge, I eat chocolates, chips, deep fried goodies, also the salads and all the other healthy stuff too.

So the good is good, but the bad – its bad!

But They Say The Sky’s
The Limit
And To Me That’s Really True
And My Friends You Have
Seen Nothin’
Just Wait ‘Til I Get Through . . .

The first step I have taken is to stop obsessing over my weight. No I am not about to share what I weigh, or what size my clothes are over here, when I feel I need to make that sort of confession I will, but right now I am talking about, how about for a change, we love ourselves the way we are. Each of us is a creation, a manifestation of something we cannot quite comprehend, no matter what the scientists are telling us. So we are perfect, just because its the way we are. Now as a perfect being I need to get the better of a situation that makes me less than this perfect, beautiful self. This situation is called “eating all the things you really don’t want to be eating if you knew what it is doing to you”. Rather a long name for a situation, but it seriously it weighs a ton on the body and on the mind… and consumes a bit of you every day. Expensive.

Soon after that doc visit I mentioned here… I stopped refined sugars completely. That to me is really worthy of calling a step forward. I am, my friends, a sugar addict. I love sweets… I love chocolates, ice creams and mithais… over the last 5 years my sweet tooth has got the better of me… and I crave for a sweet taste in my mouth post every single meal. Hopefully it is a thing of the past. The first two weeks, of my no sugar life were very tough. I did indulge on the weekends, saying to myself “one lil bounty isn’t gonna hurt me… if the big picture works”. I saw sense in the third week… that one lil bounty was creating a cavernous pit of desire somewhere near my gut. So I just stopped listening to that voice… and I munched on an apple… you must know this about me that I am not much of a fruit eater, unless it is inside a cake. Week 4 I paged my blog pal Sangeeta … she’s a blogger I admire very much. There are many reasons for that, she is an exemplary mother, adventure loving, foodie, who’s an inspiration to all whose lives she has touched through her blogs. Sangeeta also does personalised meal plans, and I wanted/needed a friend for the handholding… and she stepped up. This is what I was talking about when I said, if you need help, ask… and ye shall get it! More about the nature of my eating in my next post.

Let me not leave you without food today… here’s my mid-morning snack/smoothie. I must add here that I am free from cravings, quit sugar, it helps!

Print PDF